[b]areanne wrote:[/b] [quote]i dont know..i\'ve felt like i\'m dead or watchin my life go by but now able to do anything about it... its wierd n i\'m sick of it :angry: i try to be happy n loud n just optimistic but i cant... i dont get it... i really want to be happy but i guess maybe life has difrent plans for me :unsure:[/quote] Its obvious that it seems that your depressed in a way. The next step to understanding it is asking where these feelings are coming from. You\'ll probably say in reply to that they come from yourself, but in truth they come from another source. Your mind is a battlefield as well and you need to sharpen and refine it into Christ\'s image. Otherwise the enemy has entrance to not only your mind but your heart and can set up a stronghold there. Whether your it actions and things that come at you in life that get you down or otherwise. Review what is going on and ask God for help in it. Your anger seems to be towards life and that has led you to feel down. Seek the source of the problem and cut it off whether it be in mind or in the world. -Dimitri