hey my life has been horrible the past few weeks. i found out a friend is lesbian, a guyfriend is bi, a girl friend of mine isnt talkin to me and is goin prep, my mama wont let me go to the Florida Keys with my biology class this feb cause it caost to much(i could get the money we r doin fundraisers, christmas is comin..) our youth group might not go to Snowbird for our summer trip(i cant live without that place.). i have cried a lot and just got done....for now. i have had thoughts of cuttin myself, but havent yet. im afriad i might go into a depression... :( :( at school i always smile no matter what and push the pain down deep. i hide it. i feel my heart is breaking..... i cant take this much longer....