yeah, i dont know like...i mean...im not sure if its an addiction or not i mean. it feels like i cant stop well no actually i need to rephrase this. I can stop...i have the ability to...but i choose not too because im scared of losing that reassurance of being attractive. Im scared of not being told that i am good enough. So its not an addiction in the sense that...i cant stop. i think its more that...i dont want to stop, i know its wrong, and it makes me feel bad...but i still dont want to...i dont know.