Yes, but your self esteeme is to the point that you risk your death by not eating, by stopping your necessary medications. You're putting yourself in physical danger because you dislike yourself. Addiction or not, though, I believe it is from what you have told us, that reason above is the really concerning one to me. The thing with addiction is that we all know we are capable of stopping, but when it gets to the point that it pains you, yet you still do it all the time, swearing it off then running back, depending on it for any matter at all, (including self worth) and even becoming fearful of life lived without it, that is when it becomes dangerous for you. I had a lot of problems over self worth. It lead me to cutting and suicidal tendencies. Yeah, I could have stopped cutting, but it was still an addiction that was going to kill me if i didn't get help.