Hey girl :) I don't have much advice, but I hope that the little bit I do have will help. First off, GOD LOVES YOU. He created you, and he loves you, and he does not think you are "fat or ugly" think about that for a minute. You are GOD'S creation, and You are BEAUTIFUL :) Girl, I'm your age, and although I have not dealt with anything you have, I've had my fair share of struggles in life. I want you to check out a website that's helped me out a LOT. This website, [b][i]www.susiemag.com[/i][/b], is a global sisterhood for teen girls. It is made specifically for you and me, and helps us face the struggles of everyday life while helping us grow a stronger in faith in God. The fellowship on this website is absolutely amazing, and I think you should go check it out. Stay strong, girl, and don't let life get you down. There's a book called "Do hard things" by Alex & Brett Harris. It's a book for teens, and definetley offers strength to those who are feeling weak.There's a website related to it, [b][i]www.TheRebelution.com[/i][/b]. I think you should check this out as well. I understand that your dealing with some pretty hard stuff right now. I'm going to pray for you, and I want you to know that there is ALWAYS hope. In the bible, Jeremiah 29:11 says this: "I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." There is hope, girl!~ I'll pray, and you hold onto that hope. Deal? Check out the sites I mentioned, and see where things go from there. I don't know if you've ever tried counselling, but I think it's a good idea. I was dealing with some pretty heavy issues a while ago, and finally got the courage to talk to my school counsellor. Being up front with someone made a world of difference! I would recommend trying to find a good counsellor, and letting them help you. If your anxious about talking to someone up front, you could always print off what you've written here and hand it to the counsellor. I hope this helps, and remember that I'll be keeping you in my prayers! Your sister in Christ, Alissa.