Brooke Press

My 1ST BLOG!! jeezle lol.  Well all I have to say Is...God is SO good!  I'm really excited about Christmas, and NOW, I get to spend it with the man I love.  Yes, me and Joshua are BACK together.  Took both of us a month to realize how much we really do love each other. (Not that we didn't know before)  But I have realized that courting is so much more than what I thought. 

I took the marriage thing waaay too fast.  Is was very nice at 1st but after telling everyone (btw HUGE MISTAKE) we got even more pressure.  The decision of who I marry isn't only God's decision, but mine as well.  I just let God lead me in the way he wants and I decide I want to further the relationship...  But talking about marriage when neither of us are ready (which I knew but was very hardheaded about) is stupid, and very selfish.  I was pressuring the thoughts we had and making it very difficult to pick out reality.  We both had a part but took it farther than it ever should have gone.  I learned SO stinkin much from this, I will never (at least willingly) push myself into rushing marriage! 

 I am blessed even without him, but also blessed with him.  It just makes me feel like I get to be with someone that makes me so happy.  I am thankful God loves me as much as he does.  To send him only son to die for our selfish sins.  Can't thank him enough.  My joy is in God..and whats weird is, that I realized a lot of this couple days before he wanted to get back together.  God has his perfect timing.  just perfect.