Bio : I was born in Vermont in 1995 even though I may appear more youthful. I went to elementary school there and went to high school in New Jersey. Later I moved way out of New England and adventured almost the rest of the country. And I certainly had my good times and my bad times. I struggled terribly from OCD and schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, and some child abuse. I also found that the only possible real resolve from the mental illnesses and all, was beyond the power of human beings and could only possibly be brought into fruition by the great and good Lord God. That's the God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Jesus, Mohammad, Noah, David. Knowing how I would act in the future, God wonderfully and lovingly put a great blessing on the shelf for me when I was only ten. At nineteen I went and made my first prayer to God in my life. Yoh, that was answered the next day. I finally settled in Missouri after living in many different states of the USA with that fever for being of different parts of the country. God lead me to Missouri which is good. But aside from that, sometimes one knows way inside what one needs to do, but just does not have the strength and will power to do it. Like initially taking chute and jumping from an airplane, takes even less physical effort than simply standing up out of a chair, but is yet the hardest thing one did in a life time. Guess it's time for me to cross that line in the sand. But what God has shown me is better than all the money in the world, every vacation resort, my health, and all the gold in Fort Knox. It's a matter of life and tears to me to be able to pull through and let go and trust in God in all of this. I have to humbly go beyond myself. And only God can bring the great bliss, the freedom all the way, the clarity and great wonders in being freed from the horrid chains and fetters of the mental illnesses which tormented me for decades. Great bliss and blessings of which I have even already encountered bits of, show how mighty and wonderful God our creator really is. Now I need to finally brave it and pull through. Aiming for sheer purity of heart, is the first step forward. In actual reality, God IS wonderful, and yup, it's time to trash the sins as thoroughly as one can. Anyways those are only obstacles. The trick is to sincerely seek to live in God's presence and talk to God on a NORMAL BASIS and not JUST during Sunday church and during a daily prayer, get to know God better and better. That is what I think a lot of American Christians just might be missing out on fairly often. I know I was.
