christina murphy

i have always had this problem battleing my religious side with my worldly side. never wanting to choose but something amazing scary comforting life changeing happend over the weekend. i fell asleep early saturday night only to have this dream though not much of a dream of this man at the end of my bed which was not the first time he has been there right befor my fiance came home a few months ago i awoke to see him there it was such a terrible feeling completely scared even though he was nothin but a shadow of a man anyhow .. saturdaynight i couldnt move though i used all my strength it was as if he was holding me down with out touching me .. so i knew i needed to wake up but yet i was unsure if i was already awake or not so i started shaking my head back in forth tryin to achieve wakefullness which was a nogo i started screaming MOM! MOM! MOM! she didnt answer so it was on to GRANDMA! GRANDMA! GRANDMA! and i was so sure noone was gonna answer i felt this presence in the corner of my room a good feeling a safe feeling like someone was protecting me. finally while screaming GRANDMA! she called.... and woke me up. i thought it to be no big deal maybe justa nightmare but i was very shookenup about it. so the following day i went to church and i told my mom i wasnt going to get up so they could pray for me but preacher called me and i did anyhow..lol so much for my resistence..he started to pray everyone started to pray he annoited me with oil and i felt this calming warm sensation this feeling was utterly amazing.. it was soo comforting especially after the night befor.. and while going over to my grandmothers my mom asked what if its the angel of death? i was like omg mom thats horrible to even say not to mention scary. well laborday came and my grandmother said she needed to speak to me. she told me she felt so strongly that the lord had spoken to her and let her know i needed to stay outta my room it was witchcraft. how she knew that i dont no...it was definitly god. i bought this book i had never read but a few pages. and the book disappeared.. and i had this bf when i was younger who said he put a curse on me . because i didnt understand his pain what he was going through. so she pegged it there and said in the bible where the pharoes dont no if i spelled that right ordered to have all the babyboys murdered and the people that wanted to live had to put goats blood across their door she said it was like this. i asked i need goats blood grandma? (how nieve) she said NO! you need jesus's blood.. she said its the angel of death he was at your bed trying to take your body and there was demons outside your door but jesus was holding them off temporarily i was soo scared.. with all that happend.. i came home and prayed.. really prayed something i havent done in awhile and gave my heart to go and told that angel of death and the demons they cant have me i have plans to fulfill my destiny to do what jesus wants me to do .and thats just what im gonna do...... im done being worldly,, im done walking the wrong path im done with everything i just have been done with along time ago.. i belong to jesus now!