JESSICA DOUGA

NO NOT LIKE IN MATH! MY DOCTOR HAS DECIDED TO GIVE ME AN ADULT ADD SCREENING. THAT COMES AS NO SUPRISE TO ANYONE WHO KNOWS ME. I THINK I HAVE KNOWN ALL ALONG THAT I HAVE THIS BUT WAS TO ASHAMED TO ADMIT IT. PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME EITHER LOVE ME OR CAN'T STAND ME. THERE IS NO MIDDLE GROUND. THEY THINK I'M FUNNY OR A FOOL. I CAN'T CONTROL THE IDIOTIC THINGS THAT COME OUT OF MY MOUTH. I SPEND HOURS GOING OVER CONVERSATIONS IN MY HEAD MAKING SURE I DIDN'T MISBEHAVE. YEAH I KNOW LIKE I'M 5 RIGHT. I THOUGHT I HAD FIGURED OUT HOW TO LIVE THIS WAY UNTIL THE LAST YEAR.  I FEEL CRAZY MOST OF THE TIME. A LOT OF PEOPLE SEE ME THAT WAY.  IT HAS ADVANTAGES THOUGH. FOR ONE I CAN RELATE TO KIDS WELL AND FOR ANOTHER I SEE THINGS IN WAYS OTHER GROWNUPS CAN'T. WHICH IS WHY MY ROOM IS THE HANGOUT FOR PRETEEN AND UP. THEY ARE WORRIED I WON'T BE THE SAME IF I START TAKING MEDS. I'M A LITTLE SCARED OF THAT TOO. BUT I CAN'T LIVE BEING FRUITY OLD MS JESS FOREVER. MY APPT. IS THURSDAY SO I'LL POST BACK WHEN I KNOW MORE

FALL ROAD Arms spread wide eyes closed Cool breeze tastes like fallen leaves Can't you see me fly THIS IS ALL MINE GUYS PLEASE DON'T RIP ME OFF FOR SOME SCHOOL POETRY THING. IT'S NOT THE BEST OUT THERE BUT IT IS MINE!!!!!!